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[Dec. 1st, 2007|02:52 pm] |
sometimes it's bad or just ordinary,
you adjust to senseless conditions,
then a new card drops out of the deck,
it severs the tendon between the thumb and the forefinger,
a dark electric numbness overwhelms the
spinal chord
and your mother's face appears on a
billboard
skewered as it should be,
advertising
adversity as the norm,
you pour a fresh drink,
duck down between the stink of humanity
and the ferocious boredom
of time,
come up once to blink,
go down twice to think it over,
dial 911
and get a voiceless voice like a dead scream of a caterpillar
as Rome scuplts the monster
and children as little
as flies
crawl the walls of your
brain. |
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| Whatever's Cool With Me |
[Oct. 12th, 2007|07:30 pm] |
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| | Friday Night Fever - The Joos | ] |
I haven't updated this responsibly!
(Homecoming was a blast, I had the best time in the world dancing with Kim and the crawlers. Afterwards was nice, we just lied there and watched a flick then I droveeeee Kim back and ended up sleeping at Alex's very late. Man though, it was fun. My friends didn't have the date-type time they wanted, but they still had fun I am sure.)
Anyway right now I have a very sore throat, I haven't been to school in two days. I miss Kim but I don't think it'd be good seeing her under these conditions- she's sick too! I am waiting for Alex to call back but it's getting late. I wrote a few okay songs and I want to play them with my buds. I am feeling pretty content lately, a little scatterbrained but content. I am very glad I have someone as wonderful as Kim. She is a great great great girlfriend. |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2007|04:16 pm] |
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| | Here Comes The Night - Destroyer | ] |
So, what's new? I went to see the Flaming Lips monday and had the time of my ever-loving life. Honestly I've never been a fanatic, but the concert changed that. I think I might have had a religious reawakening, but from the looks of it that isn't anything new at a Flaming Lips show. Here are some pictures anyway, but they barely convey any of the glory:
even more here http://www.flickr.com/photos/kylek/
And on another, more important note- Homcoming is Saturday. I guess a lot of things fell threw because of three or four illigitamate birthdays, but that's none of my business- as long as me, Kimzy, and the rest have a swell time. Some other couple cancelled as a result and I am glad because I do not know or appreciate them so much. Well, mostly just I don't know them- anyway I am happy with the group. Just hope Kim has as wonderful a time as she deserves. And Alex, and everybody else for that matter. Wonder what we'll all do afterwords.
I have to get my senior picture tonight, it's the deadline. I have to wait around for a long time.
I just can't wait to see Kim next, everytime I see her I never want to leave.
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[Sep. 28th, 2007|03:53 pm] |
Jamming with Chris and Alex yesterday totally made me feel like I'm in a real band again, it sounded so great. Hope we get something great made this weekend. Whoever said music was good for the soul knew what they were talking about.
I miss Kim! I gotta see her tonight. I guess I'm honestly excited for all this school dance business, as long as she's there I'll be happy. Happy.
The Stranger ruled, one of the few books I've been actually compelled to keep reading.
Ok- College Apps gonna be DONE by next Friday, we'll see how I do with that one. Haven't even started my grande amount of homework for the weekend.
I've been set free and I've been bound but now- I'm set freeeee. |
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[Sep. 23rd, 2007|12:06 am] |
I am happy. I spent the day with Kim and just cleared all doubt that she is the coolest person this side of Antartica (because it's cold there- cool). She makes me feel so clear and sweet. Homecoming is gonna be a hoot, I don't care what you think. Nightcrawlers meeting went awesomely, my friends are such great anchors. I guess from here on out I can hope to get into a good college, keep the great relationships I've got now, and work on getting whatever I'm good at out there. Did I say that Kim was great?
This is a Mount Eerie song called I Say No and I just really really love it:
Some people say
"Arise! Arise! Arise! Live friend, live!"
I say "Die."
I say "Shade yourself."
I say "Shine what precious light you have into caves,
And when it dies out stay in there"
I say "find life where you foolishly saw graves."
Some people say to "Try and try and try!
Fight and save yourself!"
I say "Give".
I say "Send them off."
I say "Shed whatever husk if you are ripe,
And if you're not, be fragrant then"
I say "Give. No matter how it hurts, give in!"
Some people say "The sky! The sky! The sky!
Have you noticed it"
I close my eyes, I say nothing now.
There's a ringing in my ears that's faint and high,
And when I listen close to it, it says " ."
Maybe it's cheezy to you but man it really gets me. |
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[Sep. 16th, 2007|04:27 pm] |
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| | The Modern Lovers | ] |
I'm feeling happy. I'm not as worried about college and things, I'm not looking to be wealthy when I grow up and I don't expect to do something I love as a living anyways. I have my hobbies and they are good enough for me (at least for now). I just need to live a little more consistently and learn to bite more bullets.
Kim's a pretty great gal, It's just nice being around her. I don't have to make stupid jokes and I don't have to act like somebody I'm not. It's refreshing finding someone like that. Rocky Horror ruled! Next she needs to see Heathers.
Alex and I recored this song about indie rock songs. It's kind of catchy if you give it a chance. I guess we are trying to find a balance between annoyingly tounge-in-cheek and pathetically overly sincere. Tostitos nacho cheese is very tasty!
Our house will soon be blue instead of dark brown -maybe a metaphor for some major personal change? Too much fucking AP Lit.
stoked for fall
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[Sep. 5th, 2007|06:25 pm] |
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| | Welcoming | ] |
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| | Continental Op | ] |
I haven't been getting much done but I feel alright. Some people I know have got it worse anyways.
Maybe I will do some alright hanging out and get the blood flowing, I'm stuck in that rut you get stuck in when you don't have anybody or anything to think about.
Listen to Good Rhythms if you want, I'm happy we're doing more music.
Computers are like anti-depressants, I'm on them. |
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[Aug. 28th, 2007|08:31 pm] |
I'm baAack. I don't like this college shit, I don't want a career. I like music, I like writing, I like creating things in general but this is not a career. I dislike trying to make a portfolio, I'm not talented at all I just have good ideas. I also like writing a lot but it's not very practical. I wrote this "6 word story" for AP Lit:
Smothered in scrapes, Now I'm writing.
People tell me I should be a college art/culture professor guy but really that doesn't sound easy or rewarding. I don't keep up with the news. I don't look into things I should look into. I don't have nobody to chill out sincerely with. You know, like a relationship.I hope Alex and I make some nice music while we can. Mostly I just thing of cool band names that wouldn't be cool to Alex, it's a very deep existence.
Sorry this first new entry is so self-centered and comatose, but that's exactly how things have been lately. |
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